Jealousy will be the end of me. Envious of the things that weren’t even meant to be. I can finally say that we’re friends now, but there’s still a void to be filled somehow. I’ve never been so happy in my life, nor has the skies turned so dark and neither have the stars shined so bright from afar. I’m still looking for myself, dropping my sense of doubt, I’m breaking out. Even if time and space has set us apart, there’s nothing strong like a bond between our heart to heart.
Can you see the lights flicker in and out? Do you get that sudden sense of doubt? Don’t worry at all, cause I’ll pick you up if you fall. Just close your eyes and let go, of the reality that we all know. Sometimes you don’t quite believe me. Soon in time I’ll show you, you’ll see. The evening sun is sinking ever so low, we’re by the ocean waves, hand in hand, and I don’t ever want to let go.
I’d give you my heart, But it torn itself apart. I’d cover you from the rain, And save you from the pain. You always light my day, Please don’t walk away. Beautiful with your smile, Just please stay a while. I can’t seem to think, I’m almost at my brink. What’s it take to make you mine? I have till the end of time.
Nothing is ever wrong, and everything is perfectly fine. All the right lies and all the sad crimes. Do you see your world turning upside down, or do you just see this frown. Where am I to go when my world is all cold. I could never leave you alone, my one place I call home. I’m always here by you, conscious or not, I try my best to keep up with this. I can’t say what’s always on my mind so I’ll bite my lip from time to time. I’ve said that I care for you and I always do. The feeling doesn’t feel as grand over here, so why don’t you send me some help. ‘Cause there’s nobody else for me. There’s a droplet of water in my sea of anguish but, the ripples calmed my waves. But, that’s only a day till the seas grow angry with jealousy and spite. I can’t fight it alone tonight.
Am I losing you? I don’t really know. I just don’t want to go home. It’s bitter cold, with a hint of insecurity. I can’t seem to live alone, thus the reason for this feeling, you see. Push, push me away, push me till I break apart. This sinking filling drags down my heart. I know you want space, space, but I haven’t had enough of you. I’m trying to let you go, but I don’t want you know. I’ll keep myself occupied, we were once close, close, but now you’re so far away, away. Why I can’t the light of day? You’re a distant friend I once knew. I once held your heart, but now my face has turned blue. The oxygen I breathed, has now depleted on me. I think I’m going crazy, I once called you baby. Everybody impresses you, but I’m some annoyance, that you couldn’t get used to. All friends, I once loved so. But, for some reason, I let them go.
I cried the tears, they’ve run dry. I’ve bleed the blood, to feel high. But, I’m still missing you, tonight.
“Too much, too much, too much of anything is too much.” I miss the memories, your smell and your touch. The warmth of your smile, wished you’d stay a while. I was happy and content, with my best regards, I sent. Baby, you embodied beauty, being cute and smart. Oh man, you were a perfect work of art. No, I was much too clingy, depressed, now sad. I gripped too hard and it ended up bad. Why was I afraid to lose you when you weren’t mine? I lost a good friend, now I’m unsure I’ll get back in time. The mornings are harsh, and the nights are cold. I’m still young, but this feeling is getting old. I lost a girl that I used to hold. Nightmares, oh they plague me ever so. These sad memories of us, I can’t let go.
